𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗔𝗥𝗬: "I am no God" by Janela Kim F. Clava

Published by: Marino Peralta

Date Published: August 15, 2024

Time Published: 12:00 PM

Category: Prose

Theme: Comparing the way you'd love to the tragedies of Gods.

When I was a kid, one of my plans were raising myself to be brave and smart like Athena. To sway my sword freely and every word spitting out of my mouth should be right, sharp, and sensible. To have and create any possible proof that I am something, and even in a wordless wisdom, I will be remembered.

So I escaped from the cyclops of unhealthy cycles and finite freedom, and with Icarus' determination. I've learned how to soar and dance high above the society's so-called sky. Indeed, my wings were created from my bare and dirty hands. They weren't gifted to me the moment I draw my breath here, as long as I can glide, it'll be alright.

Running through the forest of people like Artemis while holding the books made by Athena was my first instinct. I know where my path is, I know how to hover for a while and to continue the journey I've been dying to travel. You know what some people say, the look of the sky in every corner is the same. So no, I didn't noticed how the mere wings of Icarus was turned to Eros' strong flapping wings.

It took me a while that the reason why my wings were similar with Eros was to follow his path. My goal was already set, from the smallest to biggest step, but the wind added that I must fall for you. For the arrow of my pen insisted to write poetry referencing you, rather than to write the knowledge I've been trying to pursue. 

I took Icarus' fall, who knew that iI was flying into an early grave? It is fine to drink myself to death, for the moment I've laid my eyes on her I knew she didn't need Midas' touch to turn into gold. But who am I fooling? I am no God. I am no God but like Eros, I wouldn't dare to let any arrow touch your skin.

I am no God, however if I was Hades, I'll make sure that you will still see the light and feel the warmth in the dark. I am no God, I am no immortal, but I would try to immortalize you through any art and sculpture that states "You are here and you were loved." 

I am no God, I cannot offer you anything. But if I was Orpheus, I also would've look back and lose.