𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗔𝗥𝗬: "I Think but I Am Not" by Jerica A. Omalin

Posted by Mea Nicole Osias

Date Published: January 19, 2023

Time Published: 9:19 AM

Category: Poetry

Theme: Delusion

The train of thoughts I've got at midnight—

My subtle excuse to stay up late. 

What am I supposed to do in a broad daylight

If not querying my own faith? 

Lucidity is only achieved in not wakeful state, 

When my mental landscape is deformed

By the unconscious reality I created—

The mirror of himself exists as a norm. 

He is the entity I don't have to conform, 

For the awareness of the disgraceful impurities we both share. 

Both stranded in the turmoil of a chaotic storm, 

And the solace for us to afford is to fare.

I want to bring him to a tangible limelight. 

But for him, pseudo-sympathy is grim.

I'm afraid to caress him—I might summon a fight.

Only in a sedated stupor, I see his lively beam!

What shall I do to make him come to life?

If he could just see himself through my lens;

If I could just make his baggage less dense;

Yet I can only somniate to witness his reference. 

When the world's lullaby turns to a scream, 

Out of bizarre caprices that clash—

The escape is to be with him in my dream

where his comfort vanishes in a flash, 

And his departure makes me fash!