𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗔𝗥𝗬: "I am Cynical. I'm in Disbelief" by Nicole S. Tambis

 

Published by: Ayanna Jeane Salmorin

Date Published: August 26, 2023

Time Published: 11:44 AM

Category Poetry

Subject: Belittlement, a call for Self-respect

I couldn't hear; I chose to.

I was scared,

I was a marionette,

I icily succumbed—

To your gaze,

Your moves,

Your faithlessness.

Darling, I hid in the depth of Atlantis—

I ingested the fruit of Athena—

I stuttered in confusion;

Why was I too clueless?

"Kid yourself; you weren't."

I screamed, "Let me go!"

Yet if you do—

The oceans would begin to ripple,

The clouds would discern the heat—

The warmth of my emotions,

My eyes were to suffer.

My hands..."I should stop her."

Darling, for you, I perceived.

To you, I knew.

It was not for me to beg,

But if you said so—I shall.

If I hear so—I will.

The intoxicated drink of our lovefest,

I'd fall for it all.

It ached me to be validated—

It throbbed me that you sympathized.

I stayed and rose;

I bantered with myself,

Convinced my psyche—

I am all too well.

"You are all but well."

Parallel lives, we tried.

Same nights, same cycle.

I opened the closeted river surge of thoughts.

My heart was all yours—

If not now, when would it be?

Seek me—and let your endeavor set us free.

REFERENCE: 

Danby, F. (1821). Disappointed Love. https://artuk.org/discover/artworks/disappointed-love-30910